I was getting out of the shower this morning, thinking about Hardrock (yes that IS how much I think about this run) and I kind of had a little epiphany.
I've been worried and scared about this run since I was selected in the lottery.
I was also thrilled, too, don't get me wrong. But I've been worrying about training, the climbs, the elevation, the course markings too.
As the race gets closer, I've been more and more concerned.
But all this worry is an energy sucker. If you have ever been in a race, chasing cutoffs, you can realize what an energy drain this concern over cutoffs can be to you. And if you have ever built a nice cushion, where you know you can successfully finish the race in the time allotments, what a relief that is off your pysche.
So I have decided to stop with the worrying. Yes, I am concerned over training, long runs, weight, the course, the cut offs, the markings,
But that is an energy depleter. And I need all my energy right now, to visualize a positive result for my Colorado trip.
Yes, I can still get in some good training. I can still try to get off the 10 lbs. I can and will study the course description and map to get as familiar as I can from the couch.
There is nothing I can do about the altitude adjustment, so actually that's not really been a worry..that will be what it is.
I can't do anything about the different trail conditions until I get to spend some time on them.
So, onward from here, I am choosing to be positive. I will train as much as I can consistently train. My focus will be to get in the best shape that I possibly can in the next four weeks and remain injury-free.
There will be no more worry about the race cutoffs, what happens, happens. The only action I can take now, for training for that, is to adjust my attitude. The new energy is going to feel awesome going in the opposite direction.