Probaly

My results of my mammogram and ultra sound came back.

Good results. I think.

Impression: probably benign finding.  Recommendation: recheck in 6 months.

While I am kind of relieved, I don't like that "probably" part of the finding.

What if the "probably" isn't probably, and I find this out in six months from now?

So I am talking to the doctor's office, and they ask if I want to make an appointment to talk to the doctor.

Yes, I do. The first open appointment is....August 31.

No.  I say this is unacceptable.  They give me another date, right in the middle of my work day-no that will not work.

"Fine.  I do not want to make an appointment.  I will find another doctor."

I was not threatening, I was just stating a fact. I'm a pretty low maintenance patient; I see my doctor about two times a year;  I pay my bills on  time; I'm a compliant patient.    But I have had it with the slow turnaround.

They put me on hold.  I'm just about to hang up (I'm in the middle of work) and I am informed I have an appointment this Thursday, at 8 am.

I want to have a biopsy done of this lump. My husband concurs.  I don't want the "probably" ;  I want the definitive benign reading.

I feel like I've been hit with a ball bat today.  I think part of it is some stress relief;  yet I still have some major annoyance going on. At least I have results, and it does seem positive.

Maybe I can get my head out of my ass and unwind and relax for this upcoming race.