Lesson Learned : What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?
I think the biggest lesson I learned was to have confidence, and believe in myself.
It took me a long time to have self confidence in myself as a runner. For me to declare, a finishing time for the 2011 MMT, took alot. It was all mental. Just because I was declaring "I will finish MMT, in XX of hours" did not mean I was being cocky or bragging. It was hard to get to that place.
For MMT 2012, it was more low key. Barring big problems, (a 100 miles is a long race) I was confident I would finish the race. Finish the race is always #1 goal. Then you work on the smaller goals, like what kind of time you think you could finish in.
For Hardrock 100, I was always being the eight ball. I knew many people did not think I could finish it. I had doubts myself I could finish it.
And that's what did me in. Deep down, I had doubts. I didn't want to discuss them, even with myself. But since I didn't have that core confidence-well, that didn't set me up that well for race day.
I made alot of pretty rookie mistakes for a graduate level race. But I am okay with that. I know alot more about what Hardrock now entails.
If, one year from now, my name is selected for the Hardrock 2014 race, I will have the confidence to say, I know what I need to do, to train, and I can finish that race (barring the usual 100 issues.)
I just learned the results for the MMT lottery for 2013, and it appears I am in. That is reassuring, so I don't have to sit out in "wait list" limbo.
I've got big goals for MMT 2013, which is worth a blog post in itself. But I do have the confidence now, to say, I am pretty sure (barring the usual 100 mile issues/maladies) that I should be able to train for this race, and meet my goals.