"Whatever our individual troubles and challenges may be, it's important to pause every now and then to appreciate all that we have, on every level.
We need to literally "count our blessings," give thanks for them, allow ourselves to enjoy them, and relish the experience of prosperity we already have."-Shakti Gawain
I was not very happy about being excluded from Hellgate. It hurt my feelings. It made me feel like I was not a good enough runner. A head mindset that I have carried around for years, even with my improving as a runner in the past few years.
I finally got out for my run this morning. It went from my 10K around the block to my 2.5 mile out and back. I turned the Zune on, and Jimmy Buffet's "The Weather is Here, I Wish you were Beautiful" came on. I took that as a sign that I was to listen to music, rather than a podcast today.
I struggled over my emotions regarding my rejection thru most of the run. I even had a little cry. As I came up on mile 4 of my run, I had kind of resolved everything, even though I still could feel the tension in my shoulders. I told myself I need to leave "it" all these feelings of rejection, of that I was not a good enough runner, all this "blah" out here on this run.
I came back inside, and saw later in the day, this quote that Slim had sent out.
It really helped. Me with my first world problem, of getting rejected from a race. But you know what? I can still run. I've got my health to go run.
And the even better part of this morning's run? I ran all the hills. Just like yesterday, on my hilly route. I ran up all the hills. I'm still improving, as a runner, and I'm healthy. And I am grateful for being able to run.